Bluberries!!!
Yea I guess I do know what you mean. It's just that I've been living with "God by my side" for a while now. So the "holy spirit cry" just seems normal to me, cuz it happens frequent enough, and I wasn't sure what you were talking about. Afterall, I did cry throughout almost the entire movie, and it wasn't a sobbing cry that left me messy. It was different. But I definately see the Holy Spirit working throughout the Passion.
I also gained a massive amount of motivation. It's like I developed an extreme willpower. Temptation is non-existant because there's no longer an option to do wrong. I know you've gotten that feeling too, but it always goes away eventually doesn't it? Well mine hasn't yet.
And I'm determined not to let it. It's the best feeling ever!
I guess it's been easier because I think of God differently lately. Like I said in my seminar essay God is my father. And that's a new concept for me so it really means alot. He's the father I never thought I had. I just had to open my eyes to it. The day I realized this, was really special. Also, I think it's easier to remain moral and virtuous when you develop a relationship with God. When you know the story of Christ, and realize the reasons behind the rules its much easier.
lol I've become a Ryan Dell clone. I use commas like every other word. :-P
It's hard for me to say all of this without disproving myself using psychology. Yet at the same time it's not cuz I know!!
Yea so the devil works through my openness to get to me...
I saw The Passion again, and it hit me almost as hard as the first time. Whereas the first time I got out of it that I had to do something, well, big compared to the everyday ministry as person is called to, this time I was given the obsticals I'd meet along the way. Now it's kinda hard to explain what I mean by "got out of it," and Jess i kno u have a hard time understanding how, although u do believe i did...but it's like this...I started crying during certain parts, but it wasn't an emotional crying like I was thinking how sad it was...but it was what i call "holy spirit tears." I guess the Catholic Church calls it "crying or weeping in the spirit." But as I was saying, it's less of an emotional crying, because I never cry at movies, even if it's someone going through pain or suffering or dying...even if i know it's a true story. I DO feel bad abou it, but i never cry. Not many guys do lol. But this, it was pulled out of me. But these "holy spirit tears" are ones where it can easily lead to happiness and joy. They can go either way really, because it's an experience into God, who IS everything, both pain, but also, and above all, unending joy. Now Jess you brought up the point that i already was aware of everything in the film, but it seems that what got me was not an awareness of Christ's pain. I think a large part of it was that God reall did work through those involved in the film, and there was truly at lot of the Holy Spirit flowing out of it if one was open enough to listen.
ok ok lol false alarm. Turns out the the last thing i had on Our Lady of the Roses shire was fake. I had it confirmed by my religion teacher who reseaches these things. It doesn't degrade my feeling though. There are some valid ones, or at least there's the sighting at Fatima, and that happened. It's documented and confirmed by those who saw it and the prophecies, told to the three children all came true. So yeah, i still feel pulled toward something....don't exactly know what yet, but with prayer and meditation i'll get there....
YAY!!! I CHANGED THAT UGLY SKIN!!! :-P
lol sry babe i forgot to change u back to administrator...u r now tho...
Sigh...I don't realize what i have sometimes......
GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!!...ok ok so i don't have a counter or ne thing, although i tried to get one, but a lot of the options are missing cuz jess changed everything on me lol, but yeah ne way...as I was saying...I don't have a counter so jess you're probably the only one who reads this thing lol so ummm, yeah....
GOOD MORNING BABE!!!! lol. Yeah i felt motivated to write in this thing this morning. Yeah guess...well no i really don't have the free time right now...so no, not that i have the time really lol, not having my lab or history done or repblic read, but i'm just waiting for my dad to get out of the shower. But yeah, guess it's because i just got out of the shower and i was thinking a lot....damn, gotta go....and i had so much to say too....finish tonight i guess....